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I'll gather stardust to make you a crown,

I'll gather rainbows to make you a gown,

I'll pick the first roses blooming in spring

And have them delivered by angels on wing.



I'll fashion a ring of pure autumn gold

To be your's forever to have and to hold.

I'll string all the pearls found in the sea

And wrap them in moonlight to shine endlessly.



I'll tell the songbird to sing you a song

Whenever you're lonely and nights are too long.

I'll give you my heart, my soul, and my life

If you will accept them and become my wife.

I was I was an artist

Much more than words can say,

Because there is a precious face

I'd like to paint today.



Upon the finest canvas,

With patience and with care

I'd like to draw the way I saw

You last when you were here.



Your features I would capture

With brush or chalk or pen

But how does one paint tenderness

That lives within a friend?



Too many shades and shadows

Are blended through your sighs...

What color would I paint the thoughts

Within your quiet eyes?



Not given to duplicate

The sweetness in your smile

Though Love's hand holds the palette

In her most accomplished forbidden.



But walking back through memory

There is a moment when

Your face is stamped forever

Upon my heart, my friend...

Deep-set curves and sweeping lines

A majestic bird his pencil defines

Detailed eyes and shaded wings

A sense of the tamed wild things

The flower's petals blooming wide

Winding grooves the charcoal rides

A bleeding heart that's drawn with care

Deep, dark secrets lying there

The tired artist tries and tries

To make the picture come alive



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Lying between files and work

A forgotten masterpiece does lurk

Careful strokes lost through time

A picture more ancient than song and rhyme

But still the faded heart does bleed

As surely as this poem you read

I'm not made of steel

Or bullet-proof glass,

I'm as fragile as a

Porcelain Doll.

Just as delicate as

I am small.



Part my silky, flawless face,

Stir the emotions I cannot embrace.

Scars, the proof of what I feel,

Scars my clothes just

Won't reveal.



I may appear to those around

A happy person, with a sound mind.

But if that's really what you think,

Take a deeper look,

And see that I am on the brink.



I'm sitting here close to the edge,

Balancing thoughts inside my head.

Weighing the idea of the end,

Tragically hoping for my time to extend.



Alas, yet its too late,

I fear I must accept my fate.

Falling further from the shelf,

I try to make peace with myself.



Now awaiting bittersweet releases,

In a second, in a flash,

I shatter into pieces.

When you

Can't lift

Your feet off the ground

I'll be there

To lift them for you



When your

Tears

Trace down your cheeks

I'll be there

To wipe them away



When your

Smile

Is turned upside down

I'll be there

To right it again



Cause I'll

Be there

Through the good and the bad

The ups and the downs

The best and the worst



Cause I'll

Be there

When I see you smile

But a rough day's frown

Won't turn me away



Cause I'll

Be there

Whenever you fall

I cross-my-heart promise

To not let you fall

we're stars, baby, fizzling in the sky

so caught up in our own bone-crushing mass

and obsessed with our own intensity

that we keep forgetting



even stars die, but we're not gonna fade

when we crack, we're gunna explode

like mentos in a coke bottle

bleeding plumes of rainbow smoke

bursting with light so brilliant

your eyes will sting for years after



when we're done blowing ourselves the hell up

you'll wade into that glittery ashtray

as it smolders with stardust

the birthplace of another star



and what do you think is gunna happen to the star?



another red giant, another burn out



call us reckless idiots

but close your eyes and picture us

in all our shining, arrogant glory



and when you're still years away

from winking silently into oblivion,

we'll see who

remembers

whom

Sad and broken butterfly

I just want to see you fly

Wet your wings, can't fly away

Wait until another day

Drink the sweet and lonely moss

Freeze and shatter in the frost

Capture your body, capture your mind

Capture your love, capture your time



Little angel in a jar

Can't stay here but can't go far

Lift the lid and watch you go

Where you fly the wind will blow

Let you go to life's demands

I went and destroyed your plans

Sad and broken butterfly...

I just want to see you fly

I've tattooed them to my bones

The wants, knowns, and unknowns

Created a chimera to call my own

Gave it a whole life i designed

The X's, Y's, and Z's all fit

Surely nothing could have been amiss

But then, in a flash of smoke

Ethereal eyes opened, awoke

To the sensations of our world

Half man, half bird, talons curled

It tore through the cage

Screeching in demonic rage

Trounced me, broke me against the door...

And in my last breath on this cold floor

I've tattooed them on my bones

All the wants, knowns, and unknowns

Hoping someone will come along

And figure out where i went wrong

Mirror, mirror, on the wall

Make her skinny, make her tall

Change the way she does her hair

Dye it blonde

Put highlights there



Mirror, mirror, take her youth

Wrap it in some made-up truth

Hide her face behind a mask

Of paint and powder, then

Conceal her spirit in a plastic cast



Mirror, mirror, steal her forbidden

Plot and scheme, lie and beguile

Tell her what "true beauty" is

Define her worth

By what Cosmo says



Mirror, mirror, watch her stand

On the scale with pill in hand

Watch her curb her appetite

Then watch her lie and say,

"Can't eat another bite!"



Mirror, mirror, slice her up

Tell her she's not good enough

Change her nose, change her smile

But do not mention that

Beauty fades after a short while



Mirror, mirror, do you see this girl?

Torn to pieces by the world?

Stretched and squeezed into a mold

She'll never fit into

Despite what she's been told



Mirror, mirror, on the wall

Who's the fairest one of all?

Look at those whose beauty has passed

And tell them the truth;

That inner beauty is what really lasts

Crash into me

make me fall apart

steal my identity

cut out my heart

Rip me to shreds

pulling me down

look into my head

throw me around

Follow me here

as I bleed and I break

listen to my tears

and the sorrow they make

They fall to the ground

and echo through the walls

way beyond down

where nobody falls

Come into this place

release my soul

look into my face

and make it all go away

Follow me, help me

find me inside

help me to be

what I cannot find

Surrounded and seized

broken by fear

drowned and betrayed...

please...

just release me... from here

How can you say you know me

When you've only seen my skin

And not the untamed world I hide

That's growing deep within.

You haven't heard my ribs all creak

Behind each plaited vine

Or swum beneath the waterfall

That cascades down my spine

You've not been here long enough

To watch a new life start

Or find the run-down castle

Lying just inside my heart

You haven't climbed the branches

That are wrapped around each lung

Swaying with the breezes

That come dancing past my tongue

Don't mark me with your footprints

If you plan to leave so soon

And only want to know me

When my plants are all in bloom

Because the birdsong may be pretty

But its not for you they sing

And if you think my winter is too cold

You don't deserve my spring.

You have had my love completely when I loved you with my soul.



You have had my love in fragments when my heart was no longer whole.



Now I love you with the ashes from the burned and aged debris.



I will some how always love you or at least the memory.

Tomorrow, will awake

Our dreams

while big, will break

Our fears

near in dark nights

Our stars

always remain

Our friends

all fade away

Our regrets

will last us long

Yet our youth

passed us by, gone

Still, life must go on



(read in reverse for better understanding)

Shall we sleep, my love?

Fall into the hazy palm of it

and feel it's long fingers

wrap around our flesh?



Shall we take note

of the shallow indentations

it's grip leaves behind

on our skin?



Shall we sleep, my love?

Because the quiet sound

in our ears

of our heartbeats against the pillow?



Feel our breath

leave our lungs and imagine it

stirring together and dance

above our heads?



Shall we sleep, my love?

Trade all the light

and fury of this

for all the color and calm

of that?



Curl together and watch

our legs become roots

that grow down from this bed

and plant themselves intertwined

into the earth below.



Shall we sleep?

Curl up with me now and let

us fall in love with the feeling

of our worries spilling onto the sheets.



Curl up with me now

let us give birth to the seeds of whispering

moans and let those coil with our bones

as we tumble in love with the

blooming echo



Curl up with me now

let us grow old and die delicately

in each others arms: for my goddess,

what an exquisite honor it would be

to erode from this crumbling earth

all the while being washed in

your lover's grains.



Come,

Curl up with me.

She had stars behind each eyelid

And a galaxy in her soul

That drew people to her endless heart

Like a pull of a black hole



She was made of earth & fire

Of wishes cast on shooting stars

She was a brand new solar system

Unlike ones they'd known so far



With constellations ever changing

No one could memorize her sky

And they though the thing for them to do

Was bring her down to their size



They shrunk the universe within her

Told her her vast expanse was wrong

That she should make her life much smaller

If she wanted to belong



As they collapsed her world around her

She felt her inner stars grow cold

Until her life was far too heavy

For her once strong arms to hold



You might wonder how it happened

But I guess that it makes sense

Because a life becomes heavier

When it's universe has condensed

Do you remember the night the moon dropped from the sky?



And we ran through the forest to find where it lie, I was tripping on tree roots and slipping on snow. You were holding my hand saying not to let go.



When we found it at last we had twigs in our hair, a rose on each of our cheeks and our breath in the air.



And words to describe this marvel was caught in our throats. As its silver light danced through the threads of our coats, we knew that our eyes had not seen such a view.



You were looking at it, I was looking at you.